Trapped inside something that I can’t understand I have no way to grab the upper hand. I keep weighing the options but they only confuse It seems this is a battle that I’m going to lose. Each day I look for reasons to stay inside Each day I find a reason to run and hide When I find a reason to live inside this Confusion clears my mind and it’s then that I miss The old way. What I am inside is pulling me down Life’s a circus and I am the clown I want to find a reason to like the abuse If I ever do it’s my life I will lose Each day I look for reasons to stay inside Each day I find a reason to run and hide When I find a reason to live inside this Confusion clears my mind and it’s then that I miss The old way. What I am inside is pulling me down Life’s a circus, I’m just the clown Playing the one who enjoys the abuse And if it ever stops it’s my life I will lose I’m trapped inside this thing and I can’t understand Why I can ever grab the upper hand I’ve stopped weighing the options I'll no longer choose I can’t do anymore so I’ll embrace the abuse.

Sounds of evil faint yet so clear Are they real? I don't care Evil surrounds. I don't scream No good here in this evil dream I see the darkness I see the darkness I see the darkness Screams fill my ears. My body weeps Can't wake up as my life leaves I toss and turn from stabbing headaches I start to die still I won’t wake I see the darkness as I lay to sleep Frightened as a child just trying to count my sheep For reasons unknown the sheep here are black They jump the fence to a place they won't come back I scream in madness without making a sound. My body twists and turns as I fall unto the ground. Can’t someone wake me? Can't they hear me groan? While I am sleeping here my insanity grows. I know it's just a dream but still I want to sleep. This pain it builds inside my head but it's what I want to keep. Just before I die I hear my screams within Know they're in my head but so is death's grin I see the darkness as I lay to sleep Frightened as a child just trying to count my sheep For reasons unknown the sheep here are black They jump the fence to a place they won't come back I see the darkness as I drift to sleep Frightened like a child so don't kill my fucking sheep

As an infant in the start of life you despised the light. As you grew someone sheltered you from all that you must fight. You listened to them and closed your eyes but it was all illusions. Everything seemed to fade away to life's final conclusion. Your fear of the black wave was all that you hated. In the end it was a waste of a life you dedicated. Blackday! Which you fear. Blackday! That is near. Blackday! You shall die! Constantly living in fear of what must come. You never realised that living, your life is already done. It was too late when you saw that there's no point in living if you fear death. Constantly feared that your next breath will be final breath. They sheltered you from life, you never had a chance to escape. Numb you are now you'll never realize what life they raped. Blackday! Which you fear. Blackday! That is here. Blackday! You will die! Convinced you were alive you’re never able to see what was outside. But now as you die you realize who it is that despise. But it's no matter your eyes are still closed to all the world. And you will never see clear, your mind's a whirl. In your life you never experienced what it was like to live. Now your life’s gone and your life's experience had nothing to give. Blackday! Which you feared. Blackday! That was here. Blackday! You have died!

Where have you been!? Surely not where I've been. And we have not been close to where they've been. Think you have it bad? Give up your shoes and walk a mile in theirs and you'll see your life you can bear. I take a look at my life and I see where I've been and I'll not walk a mile in theirs ‘cause it's too much to bear. Piled from the nameless, the faceless still lasting from a time not forgotten. They are numbers of the numberless and their shoes shall not be walked in. They are numbers of the numberless and their shows shall not be walked in. Have you been? I have not been. Cause no one’s been To where they have been. In a time before I could remember. But it’s a time we can’t forget. The aftermath I’ve seen. But its just not the same as there being. Of all that I’ve seen. Of all the videos and collections To try to know what they knew Just take a look at their bloody shoes To see them piled there They walked those lost years The pain and suffering endured For this there was no cure. For this there was no cure. For this there was no cure. Never was a cure. The miles they walked, the paths they tread To end up there as good as dead. If the saviors walked a mile in their shoes they’d see how they lived But still a memorial is all their savior’s give. Piled in a heap, no names attached. The shoes at rest, never again to be dressed. Have you been? Surely I’ve not been. And I don’t want to know want to know what they knew. I’ll leave that to the bloody shoes.

In this house blood reflects the light, it drips down the walls Evil minions with crimson blood decked the halls You collapse on bodies when you come home No one responds to your cries when you’re alone. You hold your dead children close, you start to cry. Tears filled with fear fall from your eyes. Covered with their blood, insanity fills your mind Scared to move away, you fear who you will find. Emptiness consumes you All’s wrong that once was right Searching for reason to continue Rage against the dying light Rage against the dying light Noises in the kitchen like shattering glass Reminded of prayers from last Saturday’s mass. ‘I pray to you lord, keep my soul safe. Protect me and my children for the world’s sake.’ Those thoughts slip away, footsteps grow near. Insanity builds and it plays with your fears. Drying blood glistens in pale moonlight. You want to run but are paralyzed in fright. Emptiness consumes you All’s wrong that once was right Searching for reason to continue Rage against the dying light Rage against the dying light He exits your house, the evil follows The life you lived is suddenly hollowed Soaked in their blood you’re wondering why it was your family that died You lay down to sleep in your dead family’s blood Realize he’s taken all that you love Grip your pillow tight, don’t dare turn off the lights Try not to sleep on this hot summer’s night Emptiness consumes you All’s wrong that once was right Searching for reason to continue Rage against the dying light Rage against the dying light Emptiness consumes you All’s wrong that once was right Searching for reason to continue Rage against the dying light Rage against the dying light

You reached me and made me feel so alive You reached me and made me want to die I don't know what is real you don't know that I, I can't feel Now look at me! Quietly see My struggle within I am your sin! forever part of me forever no one sees forever made me what i am i am what i am you weren't quite a lady but a man you made me i was a young boy it was my life you destroyed when you made me your toy does no one believe me is she so pristine so pure and so clean she can never do wrong how is this not wrong?

There's a problem today because of our past. This hate that we feel, ancestors made it last. This world we kill but why we don't know. The fields we plow for seeds of hate that we sow. Can't see the whole picture, you only see your side. Your morals that kill, you gratefully abide. Too stubborn to see that those you see different are different than you and me. Pre We are killing ourselves and we don't know why this aggravation turned assault will make some die. This anger built up hollows us inside this concrete kingdom we built we'll stand and die Refrain We've been killing each other since the beginning of time. Our voices of chaos are screaming in our minds. We are killing ourselves and why we don't know. Harvest the crops of the hate that we grow. The prophecies say that our time has come. Bring the Antichrist down the brink of martyrdom. The science of killing, we've made complete. Listen to yourself or that will be defeat. The prophecies say that our time is near. When the Antichrist comes it's the end we'll fear. This death that we breed is the Antichrist ya know. But I'll keep moving on, to the end we go. Pre. Refrain. We love killing ourselves and we don't know why aggravated assault will make some die. Our voices of chaos are screaming our minds. My voices of chaos are saying we will die.

The muffled noise of digging echoes in ears. Is someone coming down into my boxed abode? Does someone want to try to come and live with me in this wooden box of Hell that I now call home! ? I’m not dead! I know that I'm not dead but I don't want to leave. Resigned to giving up on ever getting out. The digging’s stopped as fast as it once had started. I haven't any strength left to scream or shout. I’m not dead! I lie empty now, my soul has all and abandoned me. This view from my grave becomes monotonous. I wasn't dead before but still I ended up here but that doesn't matter anymore it’s pretty up there. I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! I’m not dead! The digging has started up again. I've been sitting in the dark so I just don't know but it seems that it's been going on for quite a while. Why do you insist on digging? I can only see dirt. Or do you really think that this dead man will smile? I lay a dead man no skin all bones in this rotting, dirt filled coffin that I now call home. And while my body decomposes with each hour, you're up there on the surface planting flowers.

Oh baby, how do I show you How I feel for you When I always make you cry And tear up inside And hide from me when I want to make you feel Loved, and adored, and beautiful, my love I would give you what I can’t give myself If we could find a little patience between us I know you’ll feel Loved, and adored, and beautiful my love I want you to know how Much you mean to me How I wish you’d see That I love you and don’t Want you to stress about The stupid things I do -I don’t mean ‘em-

choking on the words that your mouth cannot form so you return to lay down, the relationship norm You speak of life’s love and quick dying passions your words flowing out in vertical fashions you say i can't see you but you're lying right there :we stand on our morals on rock solid ground but our basis for love was and is still lying down we've never moved forward or found piece of mind we only looked back on these great faults of mine you say i can't see you but you're lying right there :so I scream and you cry and we'll do it again because we know you're scared to be alone in the end so i stay and i say that it will all be all right but we know that it won't by the next evening's light you say i can't see you but you're lying right there Writhing around and twirling your hair. and by now you can breath so it seems my words have slid on down but still your eyes well and they swell and your lips form a frown we find what is left of our cracked common ground the wounds heal easy when we're both lying down our tongues caress each other, lips kiss where they may you feel easy knowing that this moment won't stay you say i can't see you but you're lying right there to know that we both should have just walked away 'cause lying in bed is not where true love is made so we say our goodbyes and hope it's not the last time though knowing what is stirring inside both of our minds you say i can't see you but you're lying right there Writhing around and twirling your hair ah, we hope it'll linger for awhile so when it's over there's no smile that indicates what we know is wrong neither of us was strong you say i can't see you but you're lying right there writhing around and twirling your hair You say I can't see you but you're always right there Flat on your back with your legs in the air you say i can't see you. you say i can’t see you you say i can’t see you. you say i can’t, but i do, I see you.

I'm gonna stick my penis in you.